UFC tonight has me so freaking upset

So guys, no idea if the mods will leave this up, but my dad is currently dying in home hospice care, and in the past id always watch UFC fights with him. He’s been the only person I’ve had to watch fights with and talk to about besides this sub. He’s both my dad (And a good dad) and also my best and basically only friend.

Idk if I’m going to be able to watch tonight, as even thinking about it is just totally fucking me up and leaving me a crying mess. Fuck. Doesn’t help that fights tonight could easily be boring as fuck leaving too much time to think lol. Fuck though man, my dad woulda loved to see Jones get starched lol. But since that probably wont happen it’ll all just be even more of a bummer lol. Damn

I’m just so depressed and ducked up over here my dudes. Absolutely sucks.